The Black Box (in our lives)

Yes and wow, it has been actually THIS long since I actually last posted. An incredible 126 days. Alot of things have truly happened in these days. I simply couldn't get out of this rut have been struggling in faith due to multiple and combination of the following:

1) My graduation/transition in looking for a job.
2) My dad having lung cancer since October last year and the whole family adjusting to a new normal with stress.
3) Dryness and a lack of motivation/hunger from God's Word, arising out of circumstances above causing physical and spiritual fatigue.

I got inspired to write again after meditating on The verses and entry in Our Daily Bread (14th Mar) titled "Black Box". The verses that caught me helped me to rise above momentarily on my situation and think about what have happened and what I should do in response for the upcoming crucial months.

Black boxes - as they are known, are the "log books" of commercial flight, recording its performance and conditions in flight. And unsurprisingly, they are the only clues left in the event of an accident and tell us what might have transpired that led to its accident. Supposedly, the material it is made out of is indestructible too.

It's really an interesting analogy to compare the majesty of God's Word to that of a Black box in our lives. The Word of God stands even where man constantly fails. Man isn't perfect from that Black book called the Bible where a bunch of Israelites, supposedly God's people make a ton of mistakes even when they were destined for greatness and redemption in God's plan.

1 Corinthians 10:11 writes:" These things happened to them as examples and were written down as warnings for us, on whom the culmination of the ages has come."

Admist my graduation and my dad's illness alot of my own shortcomings and faults have arose out to the surface in my own awareness. And personally, I hate myself for not doing better in light of circumstances (i'm perfectionistic). Through the many months of thoughts, I have come to see that God doesn't need me to be perfect (yet). He instead wants us to look to Him and His Son, who are perfect FIRST. Acknowledging we aren't perfect and that we need God is the key to unlocking the life he intended for us. (Yes, God tells us in fact to be perfect, because He is, but we ourselves can't become perfect without Him)

I have indeed drifted far from the Lord of hosts and Creator and Author of Life. And I'm longing to get back. He will bring Hope out of the situation.

Meanwhile I just have to DO and act upon my faith, because it's no use anymore just to hang verses and promises around the lips. I have to walk with Him, and I ask He walks with me, too.

I have to maintain my Faith, and attitudes in this trying period. Be the master of my emotions and stress instead of being controlled by it. God has prepared the path down the road, and even when I only see one step a time in front, I will take it.

My dad's situation isn't looking good, He is scheduled for Chemotherapy (which means the cancer took a turn for worse) and he needs to go through treatment to lower the cancer cells count. It is up to my choice to choose to whine about the situation, complain each single passing day to God, or assume that responsibility and challenge to Love, treasure the time left with my dad. It's pretty obvious what to do.

I'm not afraid either of potential companies who are going to interview me that might stumble on this page on the pretext of a "background check". I acknowledge no one is perfect at this point and I'm actively working on the shortcomings that God has revealed in this season of my life. Everyone will go through some tough periods in their life and mine is now, but I believe we can only grow stronger. Some wounds may never heal, but we learn to deal and live on strongly with it.