3rd time unlucky... is it me... Dx

Hello!! This can be considered my first official post after exams.. It has indeed been a long time. And has had an upheaval impact on my walk with God, because too much has taken place. Things are not the same as before. Be it happy or sad times. HOWEVER, one thing to be glad is I now know God so much better.

I have signed up for mission trip this year too.. same as previous 2 years. I HAVE NOT had a chance to go on mission trip for some unknown reason....
-1st time was because of political reasons the country rejected people going into it for religious purposes..
-2nd time was because Bangkok airport closure..
- and now.... its the pig swine...

OR IS IT JUST ME???? I have a feeling if i cant go yet again for mission trip it may be God telling me thats not my harvest field. I have something to do here. Nonetheless, its 2 months away from the embarkment date. I still strongly believe that I have a huge chance of going this time.. despite all the odds stacked up against it.

No matter what, I believe that God has control over all the things thats happening. And if i really cant go again, I will accept that its in God's plans.

Had missions trip training today...! and we are learning how to make use of gospel material (cute stuff) to spread gospel to the children... perhaps what Jesus thought of children is best found in the following verse:

Luke 18:15-17 (New Living Translation)

Jesus Blesses the Children

¹⁵ One day some parents brought their little children to Jesus so he could touch and bless them. But when the disciples saw this, they scolded the parents for bothering him.

¹⁶ Then Jesus called for the children and said to the disciples, “Let the children come to me. Don’t stop them! For the Kingdom of God belongs to those who are like these children. ¹⁷ I tell you the truth, anyone who doesn’t receive the Kingdom of God like a child will never enter it.”

Love the children.. and have childlike faith like them.. for God loves all. He gave us a right to become His child, if we believe in Him.

And as usual, I chatted with the bubbletea shop uncle and auntie. Having chatted with them countless times, I have grown to understand the way they view religion, and their concepts of faith. In our conversations, or topics of interest, we would always discuss the happenings of the world around us. And I'm beggining to notice a trend. Because the shop is just opposite our church, auntie and uncle meet a lot of christians each day.

They have their views and takes on christians.... ---> why are some christians like !@#$%^. This we cant deny.. of course, christians are also human and we do make mistakes at times. (our conversation has always been inclined to talk about people and faith at times, which is probably a good sign that they are listening to my gospel spreading)

One thing that probably makes it hard for them to accept Christ is the way some christians behave (we are like non-christians, sometimes sadly). Another thing is their own sets of beliefs in for example "Guan Yin Ma" like my mum. For someone younger than you to come and tell you what you have firmly believed in for the past 40-50years of your life is false will simply blow you away.

Nevertheless, the fact that God has allowed me to have a chance to converse with them speak volumes about God. I would never have even bothered to speak to them if i'm a non-christain. As I access my life. I used to think before I became a christian that my life is ABOUT ME. But after knowing who God is, I can certainly say that its not about me. Its about all of the people around you and whether they know God that sparks the outreach and warmth in peoples hearts.

I see glimpses of God through the warmth, hope, love that He promised everytime it dawns upon me that I'm so ever small.. and who am I? If Singapore is so small, and I'm even smaller, certainly there is much more to life than just me. Its not about me.

Have you found what your life is about too?